Our world isn’t white or black or gray…
It took me while, I have to say,
to truly see,
that no one matters, not you, not me…
(not you, not me)
That everything is only of one color,
murder’s blood, pastor’s collar,
soul of saint, pain of valor…
Just Darkness (Darkness) all around
with teardrop as the only sound
echoing through the time and space.
Just Darkness,
in which we’re bound,
in which we‘ll cry,
in which we will…
die…
(Just Darkness)
(in which we’ll die…)
(Just Darkness)
(in which we’ll die…)
So why I have A NEED to smile?
To LOOK happy all the time?
Why it bothers me,
that there’s a chance for you to see,
a chance to glimpse through the cracks,
through tiny and just a few
cracks in my masks
of that actor in my place,
of you learning what no one knew,
that I’m not real.
(You’ll learn)
(that I’m not real…)
We are born alone, alone we fight our death
And, no suprises there, so don’t hold your breath,
we’ll loose that fight, and…? Yes, we’re STILL alone!
No matter who you‘ve known
or who knew you,
the Black one, Green or the Blue,
if the Ace or two you drew…
I is Me and Me is I,
so let me be,
so let me live and let me die,
(hugged by pitch black ground,
in which we’re bound
in which we‘ll vanish
in which we will…
…perish…)
So why I have a NEED of smile?
To SEEM happy all the time?
Why I have to put on mask,
why do I have need to ask,
if it’s okay to feel bad, to feel really down?
To disguise as sad and crying,
but still smiling silly clown?
If it’s… wait…
I is Me and…
…Me is I…?
You is You, You’s not I!
You… love or… hate…?
No, no! Just wait…!
Why should I, when you don’t care?
Why should I, when you don’t spare?
I is Me and Me is I
I is Me and Me’s not You!
Burning me, burning you,
burn it all the way up that sky!
Pile those ashes up, high and HIGH!
Doesn‘t matter! It will keep my eye…
NO! It will keep my heart and soul fully dry…
So fuck you! Yes! You heard me RIGHT!
Fuck you, fuck your lies, fuck your pride!
I don’t care ‘bout you,
you should’t ‘bout me too!
So fuck you!
Fuck me!
Fuck all and all
Let it BURN, let it fall…
So close,
you are so close,
my love,
my little precious rose,
so beautiful, so pretty…
I want to,
just for a few
beats of heart,
as angels up there,
far up in the heaven city
behind closed holy gate
sing their sad sad serenade
about me and you…
I want you to…
Why?
Just tell me why?
Why,
that cruel quirk of fate,
why
it‘s already too late
for me and you,
for us…
I need you to…
You’re so close,
yet so far,
just tell me why?
So close,
yet so far
Why?
I have to know…
Why?
And locked in small
painful tear
it’s crystal clear,
that as numbing fear
grasps my soul,
there’s shard of me,
just a part,
that withers…
There’s shard of me,
just a part,
that shivers
without you,
because I love you
and because I need you
to love me too…
You’re so close,
yet so far,
just tell me why?
So close,
yet so far…
Why?
I want to
hold you…
I need to
feel you…
I have to
kiss you…
I ache
for you,
because
I love…
Only
you…
Only
you…
There was a time
When I felt alone
Like noone cares
Like noone dares
to feel
to hate
to love
just me…
till I‘ve met you
till I‘ve met you
met you
met you
you…
There was a place
Where I felt alone
Like sun at night
Like moon at light
That’s warm
And kind
And void
Like me…
till I‘ve met you
till I‘ve met you
met you
met you
you…
There was a time and place
When and where we’ve met
Me, sad dying Daidalos,
And you, beauty Thanatos,
Two stars
and nothing more
Just us
Just two of us…
till I‘ve met you
till I‘ve met you
met you
met you
you…
till I‘ve met you
till I‘ve met you
met you
met you
you…
I'm lost.
I'm alone.
No bright colors,
No emotions but pain.
No, I'm not dead. Yet.
But sometimes
sometimes I wish to be...
But sometimes
sometimes I wish to be,
So the pain would go away,
so the pain would disappear!
'cause it holds my heart,
squeezing it,
torturing,
it cuts my soul,
shredding it to pieces.
Again and again,
day by day,
night by night,
again and again.
It hurts.
It hurts just to be.
It hurts just to exist.
It hurts!
Nothing helps,
nothing!
No talks,
no pills,
no other people,
No happy memories...
I'm lost and alone.
Always smiling,
yet screaming inside,
always smiling,
yet suffering.
I'm lost, alone
and I hurt...
It hurts.
It hurts just to be.
It hurts just to exist.
I'm lost.
I'm alone.
No bright colors,
Nothing helps, nothing!
always screaming inside
I'm lost and alone
and I hurt...
I fucking...
hurt...
soon